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  • Jaleey 9:40 pm on June 28, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    my final’s tomorrow.
    my best friend’s leaving tomorrow.
    :(
    things could be worse but not gonna lie…it feels pretty bad right now.

    i’m so drained.
    i just want to be Rip van Winkle and sleep for however long i want.
    i just want to bask in the sun and fall asleep.
    i just want to read a book for fun again.
    time is freaking flying on by. it’s june 28th already & summer is 6 weeks gone…

    i need to get out of here.
    i need to travel.

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    • snowchellia 3:40 pm on July 1, 2010 Permalink | Reply

      sweety i miss you so much :( when i saw you write that your best friend is leaving tomorrow i was like AAAWWWWWWW and i teared up a little….i hope you did alright on your final, and i know it sucks and you’re so stressed about your life, but just remember what we always talk about. In the end, there’s so much more to life than all the worries that we have right now. After all of this crap is done, you’ll be able to travel and do what you really love :) and remember i always believe in you and i want you to be motivated, but also give yourself some time to just relax….we’ll find time to skype ok? I love you so much and i know you can do it!!!

  • Jaleey 6:36 am on June 23, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    有点想跟他在一起。

     
  • Jaleey 10:54 pm on June 14, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    i cant wait for thursday to be over with.
    i cant wait for june 27th to be over with.
    i cant wait for july 1st.
    i can’t wait for august 10th.
    i can’t wait to get the mcat over with.
    i can’t wait to buy my dslr camera on black friday.
    i can’t wait for may 13, 2011.
    i can’t wait to go to china, taiwan, hong kong, and korea for the summer.
    i can’t wait to go on a mediterranean cruise in spring of 2012.

    time is going to fly on by and i’ll wish time waited.
    but time waits for no one.
    —–

    so i was thinking (while i was studying of course)…
    my life everyday now revolves around the tedious schedule of waking up at 7am, dragging myself out of bed, biking to the tram stop at top speed so i don’t miss the tram, and making my way over to hsc. after 3 hrs of research, i rush on back to upc for physics. depending on what day it is, i have physics lab or mcat class for 3 hrs afterwards. to finish off the day, i hole up in our living room table & stare at physics for another 3, 4 hrs before heading to bed around 1 or 2 am.

    so. i just caught myself thinking, ‘what’s the point of this all?’ or something along the lines of ‘i wish i didn’t like medicine so much’ or ‘pre-meds have it harrrrddd…’ or even ‘why this path? why can’t i just take the easy way out of things and just find a job that’s easy to get by, that makes enough to survive off of?’
    but i stopped myself from getting sucked into the black hole of negativity.
    it’s not that i need to reevaluate my path or the direction i’m headed. i need to reevaluate my mentality. i know this is what i want to do, but in those few hours when i’m not thinking clearly, i legitimately want to snap. i want to give up and start fresh. but i really can’t, i was born to do this. and even if i suffer through this path, i need to constantly keep words of wisdom and motivation in the back of my head. i need to remember it’s a path of lifelong learning and education. a path that branches off into not only helping yourself learn, but learning about yourself, and spreading such knowledge to others. be it through the form of medicine, therapy, or kind words of motivation and empowerment for others.

    i know this journey will be worth it. but i also can’t wait until it’s almost over. over, i know, will be defined as another 12 years of my life, when i’m 32. what will i think then? how will i feel about the journey? how will i have pulled through? i will be stronger, but at what cost? i hope that i devote myself to my best work possible, but that i also devote myself to my family as much as my career. it sounds like a simple task–to balance such two necessities in life, but after seeing the drastic change in directions of career-oriented individuals, and the toll it takes on their families, must i choose between the two, family will always be the priority. family keeps one grounded. family is the warmth through any hardship. family is what will be there, holding your hand through all battles in life. i hope that through my journey in medicine, i will further cherish what i have been given.

    it would be ironic for me to not.

     
  • Jaleey 2:34 am on June 13, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    感觉有点孤单。

     
  • Jaleey 6:57 am on June 11, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    每年一到了这一时刻,我跟本无法继续。这一个事实我没法接受。这个叫做爱,但藏在表面里是悲伤于心痛。可是这。。这最重要得就是菩萨给我的一个生命中大大得考验。我可以接受,但心里不愿意。我太怕了。太怕放掉这一切就代表那从前从来没存在。太怕那些精细又开心的怀念只会留在我脑海中。太怕。。。真正放掉我心中最爱的人。

     
  • Jaleey 7:40 am on June 8, 2010 Permalink | Reply  

    shoe high 

    in love with these TOMS wedges. the flats i wasnt so crazy about, but ever since TOMS unveiled their wedge, i’ve been in love! i saw a girl wearing these at Urth the other day, and they were so flattering on her feet. the heel’s about 3.5 in. perfect!! i want to buy the black ones..

    on another note, i couldn’t resist these flats.. i bought them at barneys the other day, in taupe. nina bought them in black :) funny bc although they’re both so similar in style & overall feel, one’s completely spring/more feminine while the black is a bit more formal & conservative, yet flashier at the same time. i decided to go with the taupe mainly bc theyd have to ship the black in my size from NY, and i didnt want to wait!! >:O

    and of course, while at barneys, i came across the cutest lanvin flats ever!!! they are a watercolor blue/red floral print, that’s so spring yet perfect for my summer, since i have research everyday and must wear closed-toed shoes! they weren’t as flattering on my feet but i think the comfort & color makes up for it. it really makes any neutral outfit pop!

    :)

    alrighty, back to reading research articles. one of the 3 articles i have to finish by tonight is 49 pages long! haha, i think my eyes are going to be strained by the end of it. but i’ll probably end up skimming it. i need to be in bed before 2!

    j

     
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